Blue Book 15

-I am becoming a better person.
-I need to be more open to people, especially those I trust.
-I want the things I do to have purpose.  They are thoughtless actions otherwise.
-I am destroying my facades and being me.
-I need to slow down and think before I act.
-I need to actively think about and practice telling the truth and fact-checking so it becomes habit.
-I need to actively think about and practice communicating so it becomes habit.

Courtesy is initially a good thing, but people have to keep earning it.  You end up wasting effort on people who will never return the favor otherwise.

It felt really good to start Hungarian today.  it wasn't much and it's not nearly memorized yet, but it's something I'm doing to make myself more worthwhile in the world.
-Check out available free online classes, this will help you keep learning and give your days more structure and purpose.
-If Emerson doesn't want you, sign up for San Jose Taiko's fall class.

You can give people second chances, but it's what they do with those chances that should determine how you react toward them in the future.

K is very anxious, somewhat reckless and very judgmental.  She feels like a more sophisticated Emi now.  An okay person to talk to but not someone to get too close to.

I am timid and don't do a lot of things because of perceived barriers.  I also consider the situation I'm in and the pros and cons of doing something before committing, and sometimes that means not doing something.  I do need to work on pushing harder for the things I want to do, but not to the point of making others uncomfortable, as was the case tonight.