Blue Book 18

-I am becoming a better person.
-I need to actively think about and practice communicating so it becomes habit.
-I want the things I do to have purpose; they are thoughtless actions otherwise.
-I need to be more open and forward with people, especially those I trust.
-I am destroying my facades and being me.
-I need to slow down and think before I act.
-I need to actively think about and practice honesty so it becomes habit.

It was there, your opportunity to give up, say fine and walk away and hope it would work out.  That was the opening you've been taking as of late.  But you didn't.  You stuck around and tried.  You found how to continue with the conversation despite potential difficulty or conflict.  It's felt like you haven't been doing much, but that's a definite sign changes are taking place.

You've also been trouble-shooting, helping others and asking for help.  Prodding at Fanime (next steps: call, visit office, pester convention center), even if it's been unsuccessful so far.  You've submitted at least four  tech support tickets this week alone, opting to deal with people and fix a problem rather than letting it sit (Livemocha, Pokemon.com, Entertainment Weekly and one other not coming to mind...).  You tried to guide Holly through fixing her laptop, which seems to have done the same thing Tiny Laptop did in Japan.  Futile effort, but it helped keep her calm.  You're DOING more.

Time to pick up the pace on the analysis.  It needs to be done and at least in the beginning stages of discussion by the end of the month.

Tomorrow:
-Pie, because it's necessary
-Two cozies
-One Hungarian lesson
-Review to-do lists
-Exercise of some sort