Blue Book 16

-I am becoming a better me, and in turn a better person.
-I need to be more open and forward with people, especially those I trust.
-I need to slow down and think before I act.
-I want the things I do to have purpose; they're thoughtless actions otherwise.
-I am destroying my facades and being me.
-I need to actively think about and practice telling the truth and fact-checking so it becomes habit.
-I need to actively think about and practice communicating so it becomes habit.

Beyond keeping this book to help you through this process, it would probably be a good idea to have some sort of notebook on you in general.  You have a habit of talking to yourself, talking through thoughts and emotions to come to a necessary conclusion, but then are only left with that conclusion and not the logic that led to it.  Keep a notebook on hand to catch that as it happens for later use communicating.

You've gotten back to the stage where it feels like it's your job to fix everything and everyone.  It's not.  People need to fix themselves and not all problems are yours to fix, though it isn't all bad to offer assistance.

Part of how you stopped caring was to stop paying attention to the details that matter.  You take in so much information, but it's usually little things that aren't worthwhile.  Try to weed out the details that are useful to remember.  Start by breaking the habit of having to see what every moving thing is in order to take inventory of your surroundings and focus instead on the person or people you're with or the event you're attending.  Save the surroundings vigilance for when you're working with kids.

Tomorrow:
-Doctor
-1-2 hours language
-Finish revisit list
-Remove 'gone' friends
-One cthulhu