Blue Book 14

-I am becoming a better person.
-I need to be more open with people, especially those I trust.
-I am destroying my facades and being me.
-I want the things I do to have purpose.  They are thoughtless actions otherwise.
-I need to slow down and think before I act.
-I need to actively think about and practice communicating so it becomes habit.
-I need to actively think about and practice telling the truth to break my habits.

It was a bit of a wake-up call for the more oblivious part of me to experience the outpouring of people trying to take advantage of the "Katie's single" opportunity.  While I want to say I don't believe it until I see it with T, it makes sense.  I'm not certain and I don't want to be right, but it felt like the atmosphere with M changed after I offered to watch N.  S immediately offered to have movie/"lounge" days, but I haven't heard from him since saying I'm not available/not interested.  And of course D jumped on the opportunity of the new boxedthoughts not offering an ignore function to remind me he'll always love me.  I still don't see what everyone else seems to see about me, but I can't deny there's something.  I'm almost out of fingers on one hand to count how many have come flocking and it's beyond laughable.  It's disgusting.  And helped concrete my analyses of people.

Tomorrow:
-Send friend analysis
-Continue revisit list
-1-2 hours language
-One cthulhu